That I may know Christ and be found in Him

"Whatever was to my profit I now consider loss for the sake of Christ. What is more, I consider everything a loss compared to the surpassing greatness of knowing Christ Jesus my Lord, for whose sake I have lost all things. I consider them rubbish, that I may know Christ and be found in Him, not having a righteousness of my own that comes from the law, but that which is through faith in Christ-- the righteousness that comes from God and is by faith. I want to know Christ and the power of His resurrection and the fellowship of sharing in His sufferings, becoming like Him in His death, and so, somehow, to attain to the resurrection from the dead."
Paul, in Philippians 3

...that I may know Christ and be found in Him...

This week has been a hard one. Reflection, dissatisfaction, unfulfilled expectations, loneliness, feeling lost and adrift and lacking a sense of direction for my life. There have been some tears and some hours of crying out to God. But at the bottom of it all is this: the desire of my heart is to be found in Christ. I love Paul's language here-- to know Him, to be found in Him, the power, the fellowship, the surpassing greatness. This is all I want.

I am at the end of myself and, I hope, the beginning of Him.